Depression...........

Still to depressed to blog about anything. I cant describe this depression... Its like i miss home and kuching at the same time, while overwhelmed by everyting.

One song thats very meaningful to me now: Mienai Chizu. Read the lyrics. Its made an impact on me.

Romaji Lyrics	English Translation
mienai chizu hiroge ikisaki sagasou honto no kagayaki ga dokoka de matteru	Open the invisible map, and look for a reason to live The true light is hidden somewhere
NOIZU ga kousa suru machi iki sae mo wasurete itsu shika mekurumeku hibi kasane-tsuzuketa Let down	And when you reach unknown surroundings When you're lost and let down you can poke your way out
mujaki de ireta toki no KIRAMEKI okizari no mama ni shite meiro no naka ni mayoikonde wa yureru keredo	You can find your sparkle and leave your troubles behind you Even lost in a labyrinth, there is a way out!
mienai chizu hiroge ikisaki sagasou honto no kagayaki wo mitsuke ni yukitai doko made mo...	Open the invisible map, and look for a reason to live You'll find the true light somewhere...
samayou kotae mo itsuka wakaru hi ga kuru kara namida wo yuuki ni kaeru tsuyosa ga hoshii Give me	Someday you'll understand the reason behind these confusing days Give me the strength I want to exchange tears for courage
kono machi no naka yume no KAKERA ga mugen ni koboreteru ne tozashita hitomi kinou e sutete hashiridasou!!	In this town there are fragments of dreams Infinity is overflowing, right? Close your eyes and run away from yesterday!
kibou ga ugokidasu ashita ni mukatte kokoro wo kazarazu ni susunde yukitai massugu ni...	Move away from yesterday, face tomorrow You'll brighten your heart of your own free will, straight ahead...
Shining my heart, and I can't stop Dream... Shining true heart, and I just fly away...	Shining my heart, and I can't stop Dream... Shining true heart, and I just fly away...
mienai chizu hiroge hikari wo tsukamou honto no kagayaki ga kanarazu matteru dare ni mo yuzurenai kono yume dakishime ima koso habataku yo kokoro wo hiraite mou nido to mayowanai I will fly high Never ending Dream.....	Open the invisible map and catch the light You'll definitely find the true shine Who wouldn't yield to such cherished dreams? Surely now if you flap your wings, your heart will come flying But I won't lose my way I will fly high Never-ending dream...

Listen to it slowly. Close your eyes and think on the lyrics. I know its in japanese, but the meaning is not lost on me.

Credits to animelyrics for the lyrics and translation. All works, songs and translations are their owners hard work.